Disheartened...

Ok so only a few hours ago I was writing about the little things that make me happy and now I'm a little disheartened. I've been trying to focus on the great things in my life but I am now slightly skewed after my visit to the bridal store....So I was measured and ordered my size for my wedding dress. I'm slightly depressed/dissapointed/worried that the measurements will be for two sizes bigger than the dress I tried on. I didn't even realise that I needed to get a bigger size to start with! I thought the size I had on fitted really well and now to order two sizes bigger??? Anybody else think I should worry?

The store lady said that it is better to have it fit, lose weight and then alter it but what if the alterations completely change my dress and it looks like crap afterwards? I guess I agree with that, but I didn't really want to have to alter the dress shape. I knew I had to shorten it and put the sweetheart neckline shape but I am still a little worried about it.... BUT on the other hand I don't want to put the pressure on even more to lose weight. I definitely think I will lose weight but I don't want to put even more stress on myself as I feel under the pump already. I want to be healthier for me and not because I have to fit into a dress. Does this all sound sucky? Am I just whinging about nothing? Maybe I am just way too hormonal to be making any reasonable decision?

I'm sure I feel better about it in the morning. Afterall, it is 'just a dress'.... Right????

After all- It could be worse....